it sometimes feels like this self imposed hell is training for the afterlife

except in hell i will be surrounded by all those i have loved

i’ve broken down so many times the functional times are off putting

i would give you all that i am but we both know you deserve so much better

once i am in hell i will be surrounded by all those who’ll understand

way down in the brackish waters as the darkness closes right above me

buried deep down six feet under where the light can no longer torment me

once i finally get to hell i will finally be able to relax with those i loved