It finally hit me. After clues and hints from nearly everyone around me, it finally hit me. Nobody wants me. Maybe for what I can do for them, but not me. Not my person. That’s a pretty tough pill to swallow.
Maybe one day I will be able to fully wrap my head around it. To fully comprehend that
I’ve been unwanted
and I didn’t even know it
I didn’t have sense enough
to wake up and show it
on my face from
time-to-time
watching as others unwind
their junk on me
I took it and ran
I didn’t even realize
that they couldn’t stand
me
or to be in my presence
I think they wanted to be me
take my Spirit,
take my essence
and do with it
what they pleased
they never liked me anyway
and there I was on my knees
begging please like me
please be my friend
now I’m glad they didn’t like me
I’m glad I didn’t fit in
with family, friends or any other attempts at relationships with a significant other.
With forgotten birthdays, uninvites and disinterest in the who-ness of me, I can only conclude that I have been unwanted.
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I feel like this all the time.
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I wonder if this is The way it’s supposed to be. I dont know.
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Sometimes I think it is for some of us.
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Yeah, could be. Maybe we’re stronger and have to be there for those that couldn’t live this way. Just a guess.
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Agree
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beautiful picture! the feelings of your writting are felt on some low days.
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Thanks, I’m glad you like it. You can relate.
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I read your words and hear your heart. I feel your pain and want to reach out, to care, and to show you how special you are. But a blogging friend is too distant. You need someone to wrap you in their heartsrings up close and personal. I will pray for that person to come to you. Soon!
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Thank you Jan. How can the far feel what the near cannot? I’m sure they know. They want me to feel the rejection. You are so kind. May God answer your prayers, swiftly.
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💕
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I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Be not discouraged and be not dismayed, for everything God has for you is on the way! Blessings Dorothy!
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I believe.
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That’s His word, His word is bond, His word is true!
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You’re right.
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