March 13. 2015
I bought the boxes today to pack up the rest of the sheet music and scores I will post to my friends tomorrow. It’s funny though – as much as I want this part of the project completed, I have this terrible feeling I’ve given away something I will miss. Just today, I was looking for something on my desk and gave up, thinking I had tossed it. Then I found it on another desk and realized how silly this is – worrying about bits and things that at some moment were so useless and worthless that I tossed them.
I couldn’t toss my music though. These pieces were part of another life – one where I actually, deliberately collected things. I wanted all four volumes of this or all three sets of that, all the editions of something else. But any professional singer will tell you that when you are cast in something, the music director tells you which edition, which version, which set to use and all that collecting becomes an expensive exercise.
Still. It’s weird looking at the bookcase that housed these things, now that they are no longer sitting there together, collecting dust. And I gave a granola bar to a homeless man who was sleeping on the street this morning.
Sometimes the things you give away stay with you.